Because I have had enough.
(Just a warning, this is a ranty, negative nelly post)
Everything is so freakishly overly complicated. The map and directions for the invitations are dependent upon the hotel we've been trying to book with, but they won't answer their phones, won't call me back and don't speak the best English in the world, so every time I leave a message its wrong. And the exact same person is always at the front desk. So the stupid invitiations that really, really need to get done CAN'T until this stupid hotel cooperates. I'm trying to give them money, I don't understand! There are so many things I am dying to cross off my list but can't because of stupid stuff like that, it's driving me nuts.
And my time with Ryan is dwindling rapidly. His work schedule got switched in April so he'll be working all day Friday and all day Saturday...leaving me with 1 day to see him every weekend. I am so p*ssed that the little time I do have with him is clogged up with dumb crap like addresses and e-mail bounce backs.
This is probably more me being really upset that April is going to be a rough month in terms of actually spending time with Ryan instead of wedding planning stuff, but it's easier to be angry about wedding planning stuff than angry at Ryan about his work schedule, which he can't do anything about anyway.
I just keep telling myself "I just want to be married, I just want to be married." Ryan says that being married isn't going to get rid of bills and other daily life stuff, but I know that. Being married will take care of this BS back-and-forth-never-seeing-each-other nonsense and a wedding task list that is growing by the day, and I will gladly take that.
Anyone else feeling bogged down, maybe a little blue? This wedding couldn't come fast enough, checklist completed or not.